There's nothing here, but what's here is mine

I run. I run from the light. I wanna hide into a corner. My feet are wet and heavy. Tears run from my eyes as I had wept the whole way. Every step becomes more hard to take. I just can't make myself feel good. The woods are my hiding place, but they just expose my wounds. I bleed to death until I see the light. The light makes my heart explode. I bleed to death. A little stream of red liquid oozes out of my wet mouth.

wouldn't it?

Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn’t have to wait so long
And wouldn’t it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know it’s gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we’ve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn’t it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn’t be a single thing we couldn’t do
We could be married
And then we’d be happy

Wouldn’t it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn’t it be nice

So it is....

Today I found a friend
Inside myself, a message sent
All this life has no meaning at all
And everytime I watch you fall
I get down on my knees and pray
For you to tell me the words I can't say

snif snif

Deitado, emocionalmente morto. Socado ao lado da parede, olhando para o sombrio teto na grande imensidão negra que assombrava ao redor. Sentia uma angústia muito grande, visível pelo pequeno rio de água salgada que escorria pela sua face. Queria esquecer de tudo. Tal que as marcas de ferimentos e o caldo sanguento que transbordava do corpo eram gerados por toda raiva e dor própria que sentia. Como em comando de auto-destruíção, se auto-mutilava. Algo irracional para a mediocre felicidade criada pelo resto do ambiente social, mas o que é racional para alguem sem esperança?